It’s been such a trip

The past couple months have felt like an alternate reality tbh

I tried to fight the feeling with control, yet my body was not having any of it

As I slid towards a momentous occasion in my life (my Chiron return on 6/26) I felt like I was slipping into quicksand deeper and deeper

I decided to listen to the advice that they give for when you’re actually in quicksand, stop fighting and relax

It was intense

I found myself deep in a really bad flare up, the gnarliest one in a long time…

2k+ miles from home

With a migraine that had me dizzy, in pain and so confused

I knew what I needed to do, but felt so overwhelmed and disconnected from my rituals and protocols that help me feel better

I kept telling myself I’d be ok til I returned home then I’d be able to do what I knew would help

I had to keep pushing through it all to just get home

There were times where I was able to step up, where I felt clear and strong enough, and was able to enjoy myself

But much of my trip was spent in the shadows, confronting painful things that I had been stuffing down

It was brutal

When I finally returned home (a day early thanks to the universe setting up events to guide me) I had to clean up everything and get ready for my family to arrive for the holiday. (Which was amazing and lovely and very healing but required me to push myself to be present)

So since Sunday, I have been back to my protocols and I’m already feeling so much better

What that involves:

Beach walks
Sunset gazing
Yoga + movement
Weight training
My cleansing diet
Pure restructured and reminerlized water
Early bedtime
Meditation
Sound therapy
Vibrational medicine
Hypnotherapy, EFT + EMDR
Daily rituals
Breathwork
Cleansing + grounding kundalini kriyas
Journaling/writing

Yesterday I noticed the biggest shift and today I awoke after 10 hours of sleep feeling so much more grounded

I realized this morning that it was all necessary

It was a gift that I was able to go into the darkness to process and release old soul contracts

It was a gift to have the space to travel to places that were portals and vortexes to help me go even deeper than I could in my own temple

More soon….